This space is for truth.

For documenting what it looks like to lose your health, your sense of self, and your former life and to still keep moving through it.

It exists to share my lived experience with complex chronic illness, to make sense of what has happened, and to hopefully help others feel less alone in experiences that are often invisible, misunderstood, or dismissed.

Because I needed a place where my experience could exist in full. My noggin’ operates like a filing cabinet; I needed everything to be in one space.

One space. Not minimized. Not fragmented. Not dismissed.

A space where the reality of what has happened to my body and life could be held honestly, clearly, and without needing to translate it for disbelief.

And because I believe ALL stories matter.

I am a living contradiction in motion.

A body in recovery. A mind that once thrived on logic, research, and pattern recognition, now learning to exist inside unpredictability.

A former athlete of the outdoors now learning intimacy with stillness.

I am deeply observant, emotionally complex, and intellectually driven, shaped by both beauty and rupture.

I am a lover of truth, nature, and deep human dignity.

I am drawn to a slower, more conscious way of living, one rooted in transparency, low-tox choices, sustainability, and holistic healing.

I value spaces, people, and conversations that feel approachable, grounding, and real. Spaces that do not demand perfection to belong.

I believe healing is not one-size-fits-all, and that the mind, body, environment, and nervous system are all deeply connected.

I believe in asking deeper questions, listening closely, and staying curious even when answers are uncomfortable or uncertain.

I believe in a world where healthcare, safety, accessibility, and access to basic human needs are not conditional, but fundamental.

I believe honesty matters more than image. Compassion matters more than performance. And being fully human matters more than appearing polished.

I am not who I was before this illness, and I am still becoming who I will be after it.

Redirection, not rejection.

I stand for women’s rights and bodily autonomy.
I stand for 2SLGBTQIA+ liberation and visibility.
I stand for people who are often unheard or dismissed especially those navigating systems that don’t always see them clearly or fairly.
I stand for accessibility in all forms: physical, financial, emotional, educational, and digital.
I stand for disability justice and making the world more accessible for everyone.
I stand for access to healthcare, support, and basic human dignity that should not depend on privilege or circumstance.
I stand for environmental awareness and a more conscious way of living.
I stand for sustainability, low-tox living, and being more intentional with what we consume.
I stand for community care, mutual aid, and showing up for one another.
I stand for trauma-informed spaces and conversations rooted in compassion.
I stand for autonomy over one’s body, identity, health, and future.
I stand for protecting joy, softness, creativity, and self-expression in a world that often tries to harden people.
I stand for honesty, even when it is uncomfortable.
I stand for curiosity instead of dismissal.
I stand for complexity instead of oversimplification.
I stand for critical thinking, nuance, and asking deeper questions.
I stand for questioning systems that profit from people staying sick, silent, or unseen.
I stand for empathy without performative perfection.
I stand for listening to lived experiences, especially when they challenge the status quo.
I stand for people being believed when they say something is wrong.
I stand for creating spaces where people feel safe enough to be fully themselves.

And yes… I stand for a little bit of badassery too.

Right now, I share my lived experience with chronic illness; the symptoms, the medical journey, the emotional reality, and the process of trying to understand what has happened to my body. My health is my full-time job.

This space is also slowly evolving into something larger: awareness, advocacy, and education rooted in lived experience.

But for now, it remains honest documentation that is and will remain unfiltered, ongoing, and real.

That it is rarely linear, visible, or easily explained.

And that “no clear answer yet” does not mean “nothing is wrong.”

Many people are living in the space between explanation and reality and that space deserves to be taken seriously.

That healing is not a straight line.

It is often slow, uncertain, and deeply humbling.

It can feel like loss, rebuilding, grief, and hope all existing at the same time.

And sometimes, it is simply about continuing to move forward without fully knowing what comes next.

This space is for people navigating chronic illness, invisible symptoms, medical uncertainty, or life-altering health changes.

It is for people learning to trust their own experience again.

It is for those who have been dismissed and are still searching for answers. For any person navigating any form of healing no matter what that may look like.

This space is not for dismissal.

Not for cruelty.

Not for gaslighting or minimizing lived experience.

Not for people who need truth softened to the point where it becomes unrecognizable.

Not for those who believe they get to define someone else’s reality for them.

Not for intolerance toward women’s rights, 2SLGBTQIA+ people, marginalized communities, immigrants, people of color, or basic human dignity.

Not for dishonesty or performative empathy.

If that does not align with you, this likely isn’t your space — and that is okay.

Less alone.

More understood. Loved. Seen. Real. Heard. Met exactly where they are with no expectations.

And maybe a little more trusting of what they feel in their own body especially if they’ve been told it is “just anxiety” when they know something deeper is happening.

At this time, connection is intentionally kept simple and personal.

If you would like to reach out, the only current way to connect is through Instagram. (@huntforhealing)

This helps keep communication grounded, manageable, and human while I focus on healing.

While I would 100 million percent send you the spreadsheet as a guide and non-diagnostic tool, I unfortunately lost access to the laptop and drive it was saved on.

I fully intend to create another spreadsheet to share in the future, but rebuilding it is not my top priority at this time, and I do not currently have an ETA for completion. Thank you for understanding.